decisions, decisions

here i am again, making plans. (yes, it's 5am. yes, it's still dark outside. don't pretend you're not awake doing the same...) i've gone over my checklist for what feels like the thousandth time--contacts and addresses and deadlines for plans A, B, C. before you go on thinking that i'm just a control freak (which i am), let me just say that plans A, B, and C have nothing to do with my fear of being plan-less and everything to do with my

ridiculous, consistent, ever-present inability to make a decision.

for example:

last weekend, i made my server choose which beer i would be drinking with my pizza

(in my defense, my knowledge of "good beer" is incredibly limited)

(unfortunately, she chose wrong)

last night, i made my server decide between veggie spring rolls or a veggie tempura sushi roll

(in my defense, i had sushi for the first time six months ago...i'm still learning)

(fortunately, her opinion was awesome)

if i can't even decide on basic food and drink, i'm sure you can understand how dating (choosing someone to share your entire life with!) would be difficult and how choosing the direction of that entire life would be close to impossible. (but i mean, really, why can't they just combine three graduate programs and charge me 1/3 of the price?!)

currently: looking for grace in my decision-making process...